This word makes me sigh… because it is I saying, “I am okay with where I am in life currently.”
Two years ago I was fired from my job after being in the company for over 7 years. I was blessed with that job right after high school and I worked there all through college and thereafter. But they no longer needed me and God was more interested in giving me the desires of my heart for a job. I always said that I wanted to get a job that was specific to my degree, which is rare these days. Interestingly enough, I changed my major 4 times in college so I was a little confused as to what I really wanted, but I knew that I had to walk in what I was being lead to do and it would work out.
I was hurt that I was fired. From March to about May I sulked. This was the first time since 17 that I was unemployed and I felt rejected. I couldn’t actually enjoy the time off because I was so stressed trying to find a job. It wasn’t until I finally allowed myself to be content that I was able to stop sulking and feeling bad for myself. I needed to take my eye off the circumstance. I had to be at peace. I had to trust God in order to find joy in the storm. My focus should have been “what could I learn from this season?” instead of dreading every moment. I also needed to be grateful with where I was. I was in a happy relationship with the most amazing guy. I still lived at mom and dad’s house and although I was limited on the fun I could have I still had friends, family and Jesus. He knew what I needed I just had to be okay with the situation and find joy in it. I wasn’t going to be without a job forever it was just a season. I went on many interviews, applied to many jobs and the one that was for me, was for me. The job I got changed my life. I began July 28, 2015. A dream job to say the least, but I never could have dreamt this one up. Something I never expected. I never even heard of this specific position as an option for a job, but it was created just for me. So even in what I thought was the hardest thing I would have to go through I MADE IT THROUGH and I was better because of it.
I found myself again in a place where I had to be content. This time it was contentment in being alone. And I will correct myself because I was not alone. I had Jesus and the biggest support system on the planet but I didn’t have a significant other. I was devastated that it didn’t work out. But as I have spoken over my life as long “As I have Jesus I have everything I will ever need. “
“This too shall pass” but again if I didn’t stop mourning the heartbreak I could not have moved on to the next stage in my life. l needed to be content with where I was.
God is able to do more than we can all think or imagine. I never cried so much until that point in my life. Heartbreak is so hard to overcome. Even though I was hurt, I still had so much hope for what was to come. The disconnection was between the heartbreak and feeling like I was ready to be in a relationship after ONE sleepless night and a pillow full of tears but in reality that wasn’t enough time. I didn’t want to feel the pain but I was focusing on the wrong thing. It wasn’t about the circumstance. I had to go through the process for a while to show myself ready for the future. There was a lot I had to learn about myself and that time in my life was purely a season of growth.
How will we ever be mature and complete not lacking anything if we don’t go through some trials and learn to find Jesus (peace) through the storm? So what’s the motto? Ask God to show you why you’re in the season you’re in and what does it look like for you be content so you can move on to the next level?
God is faithful and all he asks of us is that we trust him and that we don’t let anything steal our joy. Joy is still evident even when everything happening around you isn’t happy.
So be content anyways. Love always. Forgive indefinitely. Be Patient through it all. Seasons do change.
PS … Once I was content and let the relationship go I found my complete satisfaction in Jesus. So I guess that was the lesson and God brought us back together. Isn’t God good?
James 1:2-4 (NIV) Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
With Love Ama