Daniel 9:23 “As soon as you began to pray, a word went out”
I felt like I was suffocating, I didn’t even want to hear his voice. I was tired of feeling sick, I was emotional, irritated, drained and just over everything. I just wanted to run out, run out of my home, run out on my husband, give up on everything. I knew something was not right, I cried and cried like I hadn’t in awhile. What was wrong? Why was I feeling this way? Things seemed fine. I couldn’t shake this feeling so I needed some air and a whole lot of Jesus. I took my journal and bible and headed to my backyard, I needed some answers. It felt so great to just feel some air across my face and just pour out to God, to ask Him questions and just let out whatever I felt. I knew He would be my peace; I knew He would be my resting place. So I prayed, I studied, I pleaded for answers, but nothing. All I could think about was spending the day with my son and husband, after all, I want Liam to have time with us as a family. So I decided “OK, despite this migraine, and despite my emotions, I will try to make the best out of today, but only with you Jesus”. I knew I couldn’t, but He could.
I felt somewhat better when I got back inside, how could I not, being greeted at the door by my beautiful baby boy. My husband and I didn’t say much to each other but the tension was gone, he gave me space and I said we will enjoy today. We joked, moved forward with our plans until I get in the car and the migraine started up again, I become irritated with him out of nowhere again. I had to close my eyes and pray. Lord, what is this?! You wanted me to come out with him and I did, so why is this happening?! Then finally, I heard Him!! He told me how strong I’ve been, how confident I’ve become, how passionate I’ve become with pursuing Him and wanting to learn more about Him so that I can share it with others, how smart I have become with my thoughts, how the enemy doesn’t have a foothold on my life anymore. He can’t control me because I have learned to clothed myself with God’s armor. So he’s attacking me physically, but guess what? He told me I am already healedz! I have power over my body because by His stripes I am Healed! He tried to attack my household, but I didn’t allow Him to. This was his other way in, but my
God is greater!
He is stronger!
He is Mighty!
I was so caught up in my sickness, in my circumstances, in my feelings that I didn’t realize I was letting Him win! Until I prayed, God had already given me exactly what I needed. I just needed to pray and be reminded of it. We will never stop needing God with our situation but don’t get so comfortable in complaining rather speaking truth and life into our situation. Only then will what’s in us be drawn out of us.
Don’t settle for what’s going on in your life, include God in everything you are going through. It says “As soon as you began to pray, a word went out”, you don’t want to miss your answer because you are focusing on the problem instead of the problem solver.
I encourage you to pursue Christ, get into the Word, let Him reveal who lives inside of you and I promise it will change your perspective on your circumstances.
Lord, thank you so much for turning our mess into messages. We pray we continue to pursue and seek you Lord, when times are good and when they are bad. I ask that as we come to you and pour out our hearts that you will reveal what’s inside of us. Remind us that you are in control and that you are bigger than EVERYTHING we are going through. Thank you because you defeated it all for us at the cross!
In Jesus Name!